My Lover, My Fear

I’m so afraid

But, I don’t want to 

Play it safe

Because life is for living.

And if it wasn’t good

It wouldn’t be so bad

It wouldn’t hurt

So bad.

I must learn to lean in

To not hold back.

Fear attacks

I must embrace it

Caress it

Because even

Ugly things

Awful things

Need love too.

And, that’s how we move

Now

In this dance.

We creep

And crawl

And fly

And fall

Spinning

Out of control

Out of breath

With Fear

My lover

My partner

No rest

Because 

Life is for living

Whether dark and diseased

Or

Beautiful and free

Alive

Is a gift

So it seems.

So it is.

I’m so afraid.

It suffocates

Paralyzes

Tries to take

So much

So, so much.

Until I give

Until I 

Embrace 

Fear

My lover.

Together

We feel

And do

And let go

So hard 

So intense

It hurts.

My lover, my Fear

Because life is for living

Even for Fear

Together, we live.